Love part three

it was love that made me pull the curtains

love that made me pull the stunts

love that made me sure and certain

hope

the damson catalyst

love that made me want not wanting

love that made me want you back

to back love’s romantic hacking deftness

beaten punch drunk lock me up love

sends a sorry eyed
forgiveness

when the game  is all but done

deceit?

i knew your sister

guilty - partly - saved

love got lost and love got going

love got sloshed and love got gone

all i thought i’d got was weeds
from sowing bad seeds

all days longing song

in spurts of bursting selfish lies

that make me once upon a realise

that love is not a malice monster

love is not a wedding cake

nor is love a form of punishment
for weekly merriment

in the river on the beach
not shallow not deep

not someone I can meet

shake with a dirty hand
and fathom with a weep

not love that is the rainbow
on the dashboard i deserve

desire
aha ahem ha ha

the love that passeth understanding
that i have
well i should know

because of love amongst the chaos
something’s left and something’s stayed

of love's not love that can be touched

and yet i get and yet i get

the feeling still I love you
oh so much so much they say i say so much

so god i love

your hair

your breath

your scream

your sigh.